{"id":62695,"date":"2018-01-31T15:51:45","date_gmt":"2018-01-31T20:51:45","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/?p=62695"},"modified":"2018-01-31T15:51:45","modified_gmt":"2018-01-31T20:51:45","slug":"thinking-food-dreaming-spring-liz-wagner-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/?p=62695","title":{"rendered":"I Love You, Lehigh Valley. Now, Let Us Feed You – by Liz Wagner"},"content":{"rendered":"

Article By: Liz Wagner \/ Crooked Row Farms<\/a><\/p>\n

One of my closest childhood friends gave me a copy of Amanda Palmer\u2019s The Art of Asking <\/i>for Christmas this year, and it\u2019s pulling down all these interesting walls in my brain I hadn\u2019t realized were there.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m notoriously bad at asking for help. Is everyone? Are you? Even when people offer to help, I backpedal from it (EVEN WHEN I, LIKE, REALLY NEED IT). Amanda writes about her life as a performer, from statueing as a street artist to touring with the Dresden Dolls and Tweeting fans for support, places to sleep, meals after gigs and, later, a financial hand to launch an album without a label.<\/p>\n

She also talks about Impostor Syndrome, or what she calls the Fraud Police, which are the voices in your head and, perhaps, within your peripherals that are telling you to get a real job; to not ask others for things; that you are not good at what you are doing and that what you are doing is silly and pointless and certainly not worth another person\u2019s time or support.<\/p>\n

One of my farmer friends used the term Impostor Syndrome last year to describe a feeling of inadequacy. I\u2019d never heard that term before but immediately felt it was spot on, nailing down this panicky, insecure feeling inside me that fills me with trepidation instead of elation whenever a CSA share check comes in.<\/p>\n

What do you think you\u2019re doing, asking for money for food you haven\u2019t grown yet? <\/span>that frustrating, internal voice says. You don\u2019t know what you\u2019re doing<\/i>. You don\u2019t have the chops.<\/i> You were an ENGLISH major!<\/i><\/p>\n

Etc., etc.<\/p>\n

I imagine a fair amount of humans experience this inside and outside noise. \u00a0I felt that way about writing, when I was writing \u00a0a lot more, and especially when I was thinking that I would pursue writing professionally. I felt like a hack when I edited the college paper. I felt like a phony the summer I was posted up at the Philadelphia Inquirer<\/i>, covering bike crimes and murders and municipal meetings. Hell, I would feel like a fraud writing an album review, regardless of my prior experience with the band or with music in general. I didn\u2019t feel that I knew enough, was savvy enough, was critical enough to have opinions that mattered… continue reading<\/a><\/p>\n

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See this? This right here is a panic face.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

Liz is the owner of Crooked Row Farm, a certified organic vegetable, herb and egg farm in New Tripoli and Orefield. Her farm stand is located at 3245 Route 309 in Orefield. Visit http:\/\/farrmerliz.com<\/a> for more info.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Article By: Liz Wagner \/ Crooked Row Farms One of my closest childhood friends gave me a copy of Amanda Palmer\u2019s The Art of Asking for Christmas this year, and … Continue reading I Love You, Lehigh Valley. Now, Let Us Feed You – by Liz Wagner<\/span> →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":62702,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":"","jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false},"version":2}},"categories":[69,5710],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-62695","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-in-the-valley","category-liz-wagner"],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"acf":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2018\/01\/Crooked-Row-CSA.jpg","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62695"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=62695"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/62695\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/62702"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=62695"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=62695"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.thevalleyledger.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=62695"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}